well, i'm back. yes, I'm back to DA. i've applied to college and all I can do now is wait. I suddenly have a lot of free time.
no more boyfriend.
oh yes, now that was a drama. I can't believe the idiocy of some of the people in the world.

time for a long and complicated story of love, lies, and me messing stuff up....again

well, it all started with him dumping me...last week. for nothing. oh, he said he was 'stressed'. I asked him if maybe we could try again or something, and he said yeah. At first I was in a state of shock... then I cried for two days at lunch. Then it temporarily changed to anger, then depression and helplessness. Then I tried to get him back by being super nice to him and shelling out my money to buy him snacks. For those of you who don't know, I have little spending money.

well, on Thursday, I found out he had been going out with a girl for two days. So, I'm standing there looking like an idiot and crying while all my friends are comforting me, and my ex is saying "it's not you, it's me". well, tell me, if it's not me, why WOULD you go out with someone else if you dumped ME because you were 'stressed out'

Wanna know where the lies come in? Well, earlier that day at lunch I saw him talking to one of his friends about something, but his friend wouldn't say what. I asked my ex, and he said something like "I'm going in the army", which I knew. I thought that was strange. I think he was really covering up a discussion about his gf. Oh, funnier yet, I said "oh, I thought you had a new gf or something." he had the PERFECT opportunity to tell me that he had a gf, but he didn't.

I talked to him yesterday, he said (no lies, he said...can I REALLY trust him not to tell a lie? we'll see) that the real reason he dumped me was because he didn't like me that way. He didn't want to tell me I guess because he thought he'd hurt my feelings.

NEWS FLASH! I think he hurt my feelings a LOT more than he would have if he had just told me the truth, instead of going behind my back like that.

so, let's anylize his actions, shall we?
-he dumped me and lied about the reason.
-gave me false hope by saying we could try again- oh wait- yes, he said in defense "Maybe. maybe doesn't mean yes". now, this is all kind of a blur, but it's possible that neither of us said maybe when I asked if we could try again. but that's beside the point....even if he did say maybe, he still gave me a FALSE HOPE. and me, being the naive and stupid person that I am, reasoned this: well, he's dumping me because he's stressed. I'll wait until he's not stressed and he will go out with me again. he still likes me, why wouldn't he?

back to his mistakes:
-didn't tell me he had a gf, and I had to find out in a rather embarrassing way (pointed to him so my friends knew who he was, and they said that he was the bf of someone else)

now, time for his defense:
he said he can't tell the truth if he thinks it will hurts someone's feelings

wow....that not only proves that he's decieving, it also proves that he's a coward.

now, here's the funny part. Yesterday I planned on being mean to him and stuff as a little revenge plot....and I started to...I REALLY did...but I felt bad and ended up appologizing...he did too, but still....I APPOLOGIZED!
sometimes I hate having a conscience

Moral of the story:
now, this is important to guys AND girls. BE HONEST! if you try to cover things up, bad things like this can happen

see, Karma spares no one.

Follow Nathanial Hawthorne's words: Be true, be true, be true.